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 So the other day i wrote this big blog about how after wearing extensions for a week i realised i was only trying to grow my hair long again in order to conform to some male standard of beauty. How for some reason, men think women are only beautiful if they have long flowing locks. Well, i used to have long flowing locks. And they were boring.

They wouldnt hold a curl, i wore them in a ponytail almost 5 days out of 7, and in the summer they stuck to my arms and neck like i was covered in butter!

I am funky. I am weird. And i am Hairstylist! Yes i said "I am Hairstylist." It’s a verb. It’s my life now, and i cant be wandering around with boring flops of hair hanging from my large skull.

So in honor of what Werner calls "Angella style" i have cut my hair again.

My gothic tribute to Posh Beckham -- Posh Alpha!

~love ya!
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I've been reading some that LJ was sold and the new owners want to close down the basic accounts, and make LJ a paid site only. 
Well, i dont post here much because, frankly i have alot more readers on myspace. And it's still free, so if this isnt like all the myspace rumours that always go around, and they really close the basic accounts, i will not be using LJ anymore. Just an FYI. I like you all, and reading what you write, so i'd urge you to do what i do most of the time, which is cut/paste your entries into your myspace as well so i can see whats going on in your world as well. 
And, if it doesnt happen, well hey, this is my first entry in a long time! Yay me!

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 These are the words of "god's chosen":
"You cannot live in defiance of God. He (Ledger) got on that big screen with a big, fat message: God is a liar and it's OK to be gay," God even hates Hollywood stars!
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sad sad
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I think i might quit drinking. I know it would be a good thing, certainly couldnt hurt, but it would be hard. I just feel like, we've had so many incidents where if alcohol hadnt been involved, it wouldn't have happened at all. Depending on the mood of the people involved it can turn the smallest thing into a huge life changing event. And not in a good way. I've been noticing lately that it just makes things worse.

I'm tired of being misunderstood. I'm tired of the people closest to me thinking i'm just being mean, or rude to them when i have no reason in the world to do so. But if it's going to work we have to both quit. I know that. Because I need someone i can rely on to take care of me when i need them, and when he's drinking he cant do that.

It's not always like that, but it's gotten alot worse lately, and this is the time it needs to stop. We are supposed to get married, and have children, etc. How can we do that when we continue to drink too much and fight with each other about absolutely stupid misunderstandings? we cant. We wont make it that far if things continue this way. Somethings got to change. You cant move forward when part of you wants to stay behind. 

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I Am A: True Neutral Human Barbarian/Sorcerer (2nd/2nd Level)

Ability Scores:







True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Primary Class:
Barbarians are brave, even reckless, and their warrior skills make them well suited to adventure. Instead of training and discipline, barbarians have a powerful rage that makes them stronger, tougher, and better able to withstand attacks. They only have the energy for a few such displays per day, but it is usually sufficient. Constant exposure to danger has also given barbarians a sort of 'sixth sense,' the preternatural ability to sense danger and dodge attacks, and their running stamina is legendary.

Secondary Class:
Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

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For the second time in a week i've been disillusioned.
I recently heard director Robert Rodriguez is engaged to actress Rose McGowan. While i love them both i gave pause. When did he divorce his first wife?! While he wasnt a huge star before, i never heard they parted ways. And it pains me to hear of a man leaving his wife when he achieves his dreams, chiefly becoming famous. And seemingly "stand up" guys! The last of which was NOT Harrison Ford, who had been with his wife when he was a nobody stage prop carpenter, and divorced her when he had his mid-life crisis. Following soon after was Kevin Costner-- same. And the demise of the Meg Ryan Dennis Quaid relationship that i essentially grew up admiring.  
Goddang! "The Killer Shrews" is on, and i've never seen it, but i know i wont stay up alone and watch it! Damn you movie night!! My love for thee still pains me to the quick. More than anything recently i miss my movie nerd friends. I dont believe anything has stung me more in the last 2 years than the lack of a friedn with whom to share the love of movies. Pure and simple.
Anyway. I was saying. And i WAS saying--- My how our Gods DO fall. I read online yesterday that Gerard Way just got married. As disturbing to me as this is on a purely superficial, and hormonal layer, i have to say i'm shocked. And a little sad. When MCR's second album finally hit it big, Gerard was engaged to a girl from his hometown. In all his interviews he was very loyal. He always mentioned being "deeply in love" and planning on marrying this girl. Jump ahead to this blockbuster follow-up album and no one ever mentions his being engaged-- including him-- and then he starts the Projekt Revolution tour with Linkin Park, and, more notably Mindless Self Indulgence. Pictures of them together, and then yesterday--- Gerard Way and Lyn-Z of Mindless Self-Indulgence are married! 

Well, As much as I am Jealous. And I am! For many reasons. We are both Comic fans, movie fans, music fans, AND painters, and would've eventually gotten married ourselves--duh! I have to be happy for him having this kind of passion in his life.

But i can be jealous. After all, That's what makes us humans. Thanks Eve, you slut!

But what happend to Gerards sweet, loving, hometown fiance?! Who knows. But as the truly selfless one in this relationship i'd like to say "I wish them the best"

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drunk drunk
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So i have decided to start bloggging about school for my loyal readers. The problem is, i dont have a heck of alot of time for anything anymore, and that includes most of all-- myspace. So i will try to catch you up. For the few who've heard this, skip to the end.

School is strange. They put us in a class already in progress, and it works like a round-- we start with them, and when they leave we go on to the beginning of the program where another class will join us, so really, we start the class in the middle. Not the beginning. So needless to say, the girls who've been there awhile are all cliqued out, and know alot more than we do.

My group consists of myself, a chubby hispanic chick who is my age, has 3 kids, and works as a nurse during the day, a 4 ft tall 80 lb little goth girl who stares at the floor, and doesnt speak, and a dyed redhead with 2 inch brown roots no eyebrows, and sores all over her face, who wore the same outfit for the first four days of school, and talks non-stop. Even if no one is standing near her. Obviously she's a meth head. Needless to say the nurse and I have the most in common and clicked right away. And on the second day of class we broke the ice by confessing that we already hated all the same people! I love that. She's a "heather" just like me, and thats fine.

We had the rest of Thanksgiving week off, and when i came back on Monday she wasnt there. I figured the worst, but then the instructor told us she was in the hospital with a kidney infection. Is it wrong to be relieved? Well, of course because we're all new together, Red has been trying to ":talk" to me when there is no one else around as buffer, and she's fuckin nuts! Dude....man....

Today Red wore the same pants for the 6th day of class. She talks non-stop, and today, sure as shit, she went on and on while cutting her mannequin, to no one in particular, about being in rehab--ha!-- and ---whatever else. Now the other girls are noticing. One girl finally shushed her, and she flew off the handle. She was like, "dont shush me. I've put up with you shushing me all night. I can talk if i want to...." blahblahblah....oh man.

Our instructor announced she's quit and her last day is tomorrow. The students who've been there a while all cried, and left class, etc. Then Red starts in "i can't believe she's leaving us...i feel such a connection to her..." blahblahblah

BTW, she looks pretty much like if whoopi goldberg was white, and had a horrible red dye job, and sores all over her face. Figure that out, and as soon as i can DL a pic of this crazy bitch i will, and then i'll put it on line.

love you bitch.

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amused amused
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1. Is anything wrong?
Football is wrong.

2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
I have.

3. Where do you want to go to college?
I dont want to go to college.

4. How many kids do you want to have?
One more = 2

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I get along with both of my parents but we dont have alot of communication now that i live 3000 miles away.

6. What did you do for your last birthday?
Took a drive to the lake but it was 110 degrees so we drove straight home, then went to my fav Italian restaurant for dinner, got drunk, went swimming, then went to bed.

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Trying to sleep, and half watching Conan.

8. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
Football to be over!!

9. What are you listening to right now?
Football, and bacon frying in the kitchen.

10. What is one thing you would change in your life?
I would excercise, but I wont. Now that i think of it, this question doesnt make much sense.

11. Have you ever talked to Tom?

12. Last thing you ate/drank?
Coffee. I'm making some bacon and eggs right now.

13. Whats your favorite month?
November i guess.

14. What is your least favorite month?
August. Sooo hot. Miserable.

15. Do you like peanut butter?

16. Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
Myself i guess. I dont feel any certain way.

17. Most visited webpages?

18. Last person to make you mad?

19. Coke or pepsi?
Hmmm...I guess Coke nowadays.

20. Have you kissed anyone in the past week?

21. Fun thing to look forward to this week?
Being to work at 6am on Friday!!!

22. How many siblings do you have?

23. How many pets do you have?

24. Whats your favorite number?
I dont have a favorite number.

25. What did you do after school?
This week. Watched Chuck.

26. Do you know how to swim?
I am a good swimmer.

27. Where were you born?
Logan Ohio, population 7000!

28. Do you have a crush?
Not right now.



1. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
No. But i've known Collin his whole life.

2. Are any of your friends taller than you?
Almost exclusively.

3. Have you ever been ditched by a friend?
I dont know.

4. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized?

5. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?

6. Have you been to most of your friends' houses?

7. Do you love most of your friends?
No. I like them tho.



1. Do you play with things when nervous?
I chew my lips when i'm bored/nervous.

2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
Um, no.

3.Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
Open because if i close it Max makes a fuss to get in, and then to get out again in 10 mins. And so on..

4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?
Kids screaming throwing fits.



1. Do you think abortions are horrible and should be illegal?
No. For some people i think they should be mandatory.

2. Is pink an ugly color?
No, but i cant wear it.

3. Needles aren't so horrible?
Hmm? I dont know what that means.

4. Do you have plenty of secrets?
Plenty? I suppose so.



1. Have you ever fallen down the stairs?
No. Fell up them plenty tho trying to run up.

2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?
Yeah. Had my finger shut in a car door once and the nail fell off about a month later.

3. Have you ever slapped someone across the face?
No. But i want to really badly.

4. Have you ever killed anyone?
hahah! With my eyes.

5. Worn the same clothes for a week straight?



1. Do you enjoy drama?
On the Tv or The movie screens.

2. Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?

3. Who would you like to hit right now?
Uhh, no one i can think of. I'm pretty content right now. Ask me on Black Friday.

4. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
I dont know. I havent heard anything.

Current Mood:
bored bored
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Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

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bored bored
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Interesting cause Joel is a Cancer...I'd never heard that before.

Lets101 - Online Dating

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chipper chipper
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